“She was like a wildfire.
She just appeared,
and took over
never looking back.
I got caught in her fire,
like an electrical line
swinging from a pole.
We burned together,
everything we touched
we set ablaze,
and when it all settled
we were the ashes together.”
“When did we disconnect…,
why am I still feeling your yesterday?
Awaken by swirling rotations rumbling inside,
sleep battles the filling fluids urging me to sit right.
Control of my body is control of my mind.
Controlling my mind to control my body.”
“Fight the desire to cease
speak the words you’ve silenced,
fear not yourself
trust the confusion
live and let life live,
let that be the only choice.”
“Pretending to be in solitude,
all the while having accepted loneliness.
Its the mornings you wake alone,
the silence echoing from your nightmares,
the chill of a window slightly cracked,
the realization you’re alone because you want to be there.”
“Take me to a place where the leaves change colors,
where the wind blows and the sun shines and the sky cries,
Take me someone people go to die.”
“Its supposed to happen quick
In a moment
There and not there.
Nobody ever talks the drag,
Those that don’t get instant gratification.
Those that slip away into the doctors, monitors and medications,
And the family that waits silently, screaming on the inside
hoping and praying and wishing for a miracle on the outside.
Nobody ever talks about the drag
Those that don’t get instant gratification,
Waiting for Friday, like a promised vacation.”
“If only you saw me now as you did then,
if that desire still burned from so deep within.
Before you had me, when you still yearned
if only it were then
this would be my last concern.
Instead I’m old, she’s new
and my lesson is learned.”